Sunday, 15 April 2012

The Koi


 Under the pond
   something lies
       hidden gently
           like a delicate wish

seen by all,
     heard by some
         who believe.

 The Koi move slenderly           
     across the deep rocks
        closer towards the edge,
           further from the destination.

They do not mind
     as they twist golden bodies
           along the crystal path,
              wisdom lies in scales of truth.

 Oh, what will I do
      when it is time for me too, to swim
          among the ancient colours?

Of course!  To love the water is not enough
    it is found in the world you believe,
        then you will realize
            you were always swimming.

Sunday, 1 April 2012

A Hymn

In the silent hymns of the night, a still voice in her head elicited a need for deeper understanding. A feeling frequent, yet progressively unfamiliar. “The yearn for spiritual guidance isn’t embodied into those who are weak,” she softly whispered, pertaining each word to its unique meaning, so that it could work in the magical way it did for her. “It is felt in those who are strong enough to accept the world for what it is. Nothing more, nothing less.”

Saturday, 31 March 2012

A poem


i lost a poem, and, by doing so, 
lost myself.

Silver Titles


**Note to reader: This piece is inspired by Ernest Hemingway’s works from The Short Stories of Ernest Hemingway. Initially I found his writing to be a bit simplistic, but it progressively grew on me to the extent that I attempted to emulate his style, as found in the writing enclosed below.
                                                            
                                                                  Silver Titles

The light shone through the window and across the mahogany desks. On this side there were no windows. Close against the wooden door was the heater. The American and the girl with him sat at a windowless table. 
            ‘What are you going to read?’ the girl asked.  She had taken off her coat and put it on her lap.
            ‘Something with photographs. I don’t feel like reading.’
            ‘If you like I can find you a good one.’
            ‘We should have sat next to the heater,’ the man said. ‘It is too late now.’
            ‘We can still go-if you would like.’                        
            ‘I said it is too late now.’
The girl looked far across the library at the secluded heater. The shadow of a cloud moved across the bookcases.
‘Forget I mentioned it,’ the man said through his photograph book.
            ‘Why would you look at pictures when you are surrounded by the greatest literature? Pictures are simple things. They are everywhere.’
            ‘You underestimate the power of a simple thing,’ the man said.
The librarian looked up from her fiction novel. She closed her book.
            ‘I don’t understand why you can’t love me.’
            ‘I do love you.’
            ‘No, you don’t,’ the girl said.
The shadows from clouds had circled the library and now the light was dimming.  The American looked at the librarian. She had already started another book.
            ‘I don’t,’ he agreed. ‘I’m sorry.’
The woman removed the jacket from her lap and put it on. The boy continued with his photography book. He closed his eyes as she walked into shelves of silver titles.



Reflection
This piece is a simple moment in the protagonist’s life; exemplified to display it’s significance. The girl is more successful than the man, and because of this he is angered.  The picture book represents just another disagreement they’ve had, the man showing his pleasure in ‘simple things.’ In reality, he is only trying to run away from the embarrassment of having a girlfriend who is, in his mind, is smarter than him. He still loves her, and never stops, but because of inner ego issues he lies to her and breaks it off. The shadows of clouds through the windows are meant to represent the mood of the situation as the amount of light shifts. To foreshadow a potentially bad event, the clouds shadows may fall dimly instead of brightly, for example. The heater symbolizes their relationship, as he would like to turn back time to the warm relationship they had, but says it is ‘too late now.’ The lady offers to go back to the heated spot because she is an intelligent, respectful, and ambitious character while the man is stubborn and limits his own success. The silver titles gleaming as the girl walks away represents her walking into a bright future, while the boy closes his eyes, stubbornly choosing to stay in the dark.
I have tried to emulate several key factors of Hemmingway’s writing. I tied to use short, simple words, which in turn created choppy sentences. I also wanted to use repletion to draw attention to certain lines such as, “It’s too late now.” Lastly, I shifted from using ‘girl’ to ‘woman’ in my piece, to show how the lady proves herself as mature and intelligent. I think that this emulates Hemmingway’s clever way of cutting dialogue by altering identities.

Lily's Pen

        It was a strange day on the twenty seventh. Marc had uncharacteristically decided to take a different route home; one that had involved thinking. He had a lot to ponder that day. He’d been offered a temporary job at a hardware store in town for the summer, and was simultaneously debating between buying bar or liquid soap the next time he’d run out.  The autumn wind had stung Marc’s delicate face through his dense glasses his, and Marc had realized his shoelaces had been left undone. He had carefully crouched down next to the familiar oak tree as he had began to tie his once white sneakers, which trapped the fallen pumpkin leaves as he had noticed something sticking out between a battered leaf. It was Lily’s ballpoint pen. A certain joy had surmounted Marc, as he and Lily had argued over the topic of the missing pen in previous weeks.  He had insisted that she examine her schedule step by step, and look for the pen at all the places she had been. Lily had been far too desolate to do so though. For a wintry second he remembered the hopeless look that empowered her eyes and sent her running to the bathroom in tears during Social Studies. He had never seen her break down like that before, and he had thought that his discovery would bring Lily happiness, if only for a while.

          Marc had run very quickly, pen in hand, over to her house. With his customary three knocks, he had notified the Brenslins’ that he was at their door. Strangely, on that particular day they had not opened the door within their usual time interval. Again, he had knocked. His heavy knuckles had pounded anxiously at the wooden door; he remembered thinking that he’d dented it. Mrs. Brenslin had appeared at the familiar doorway with a foreign expression on her face. Her normally glowing eyes held a pale, vacant expression that still haunts him on those odd Saturday nights. It was an awful moment for him, to see eyes so known yet so empty, he could barely recognize her. His left hand had still been clutching the plastic black pen when he was told. Even after, he didn’t dare to let it go.

That was the day that Alexander Marc Ricardo received the news, on the twenty seventh of October, at precisely 4:45 PM.  Alexander had always preferred the name Marc, and so Lily had always called him Marc. They had spent most of their lives together, from kindergarten all the way until the eleventh grade. Marc had planned for them to find a small apartment together after high school, but apparently Lily had other plans.

“She jumped.” He repeated to the child who had been questioning him for the past hour. Little Henry was curious as to why his father kept a pen on his desk when he wouldn’t let anyone (not even himself) use it.  Henry had never seen his father, or any other man for that matter-cry. Watching his beloved Dad now reduce to tears made the little boy question what he was taught. Men couldn’t cry, could they? Poor Henry had been looking forward to growing up. 
“But who was Lily?” the child asked, finally.
        Marc sat there in silence, letting one last tear trickle down his face. Whenever he heard her name out loud, his heart would weigh down just a little heavier than it already was. He turned his hazy gaze back to her pen, a possession he found more valuable than any jewel. He had loved Lilly. Even after what she had done to him, he could forgive her. All she had to do was come back. He had rehearsed this fantasy in his head many times: they would run some tests on the body, realize that it was her cousin or something, and everyone could rest in knowing Lily was out there somewhere. They’d know that she’d be back, that it wasn’t she who had jumped from the ledge. One day she would run through Marc’s door, tears in her eyes, they would laugh, hug, and Marc would finally give Lily back her beloved pen. He would finally again feel the warmth of her skin as she would sit on the black couch, telling him all about her adventures in Africa and the Caribbean. She would be a little tanner than he remembered, but even more beautiful too. They would kiss, and she would be his again.

        Sadly, he had always been too intelligent to believe in fantasies, too intelligent to believe in happy endings. A sudden wave of anger burst through Marc. Using Lily’s pen he furiously scribbled why on a clean sheet of paper. But he did not stop at one. Marc made sure that no one could even try to make sense of the word that had been repeatedly scratched in. Softly sighing, he looked down at his monstrous creation. Why? Lily was perfect: stunning, intelligent, thoughtful, and witty. He fiddled some more with the black pen in hand; lucidly remembering how every word she spoke would flow like pearls through her lovely, petite mouth. She had the most beautiful eyes, too. Whenever she was sad the little balls of blue and green would dilute, as if you were looking at a globe that was about to shatter with grief.  Everybody would’ve understood her situation. It wasn’t an uncommon sight to see a pregnant high school girl these days. And besides, it was Marc! Everybody loved Marc too. He would’ve been a great father to her child, and a great husband to Lily. She had just needed to give him a chance.

        A long, awkward creak invited itself to the dusty room as the door slowly opened to uncover Marc’s wife, Theresa, sympathetically smiling at him.
“You okay?” she asked cautiously.
“I thought I heard something. I meant I thought I heard you, downstairs.”
Marc hastily used his arms to cover the scribbled mess in front of him,
“No, I’m just working on something.” He managed to cough out in a somewhat neutral tone.
“You sure?” She paused, “I was just talking to Henry…he seems to think something’s bothering you.” Theresa gently pursed her lips in another useless attempt to urge Marc to openly reveal what he was feebly hiding.
He looked up at her beautiful brown eyes, and for a beautiful second she thought that Marc had been convinced.
“Just one of those days.” He responded, tenderly notifying her that the conversation was now over.
        Theresa pathetically smiled back, nodded and gently closed the door, a routine she had since perfected. Marc sat still in the darkness of his study, and suddenly the room felt a lot emptier than he had remembered it to be. He loved Theresa too. Someday he would love her entirely. He finally placed the timeworn, black pen into its coffin-like case and wondered why we've been taught how to love, but not how to stop.

Empty Cups

The traditional shuffling of black and white pages
Echoes through the empty hall
The silent sipping of morning tea
Embraced by the cold, dark marble floor
I sit so solemnly, by your feet
Not a word needed by me
But you insist I learn
As you spread the zebra coloured paper next to me
I watch your face shrink
Into an uncanny sadness
Deep in your eyes, you’ve set your prize
I’m nothing, compared
Shadows shifting, mugs succumb to the wooden tables
Now everyone is awake, roaming all around
Noises fill the silence of the kitchen, but none fill our own
Orange mist seals the lonely sky,
One day you will grow old just like your own father
Elegantly, with the seasons, your ebony hairs will turn to snow
And father, I will never rue anything more
Than the love I hid, which hurt me so.



Intro

For a long time now, I have collected my poems, prose, reviews, and other written shambles on various notebooks, mini blogs and Word documents. It was time that I created something that would not only organize my thoughts, but allow you to access them too.